my computer is full of viruses!

I have been trying to post for days and just when i think it might work - it shuts off!
especially if i try to add a picture....
my voice is course from yelling at this box that gives me so much amazment as well as frustration.

aaaarrrggg!

Selling my first.......

This is my first baby,

My first Real lover

This is my N90s

and Im selling it <:_ (

I bought for $899.00 many years ago and have not touched it since my mom died in 2001.
I am finally ready to say goodbye to one of the best cameras alive(in its class)
It is in fabulous condition as I have babied it.

I think i'll part with it for $300.(im told that is the going rate for it now)
I have lenses too that we can talk about.

*Please somebody buy it*

My heart is so sad and lonely...

All alone in this yucky apartment
tiered and worn out
20 hours into 20 years
I miss my man tonight

Keith's in Astoria for one month
Just a month
a whole sinkin month!
Rural rotation now
Away rotations ahead
That will be five ugly
arduous months

tonite I'll mope
and nothins gonna stop me
Im all alone
with a cat in heat.

my biggest fears?

...not sleeping at 3:00 am

or seeing too much in my sleeping

or not seeing what my sleep shows me.

im tiered....

http://www.shadeclothing.com/

These are my new favorite shirts!

I don't need you anymore!

This is a mildly momenteous week for me

For it is the first time in years that I have gone without the shucky feelings of withdrawl and am officially DRUG FREE!!!!

When I found out that effexor causes birth defects (and yes i know that even though there is no actual scientific proof of this that they just have to say it anyway) regardless, I wanted off -just in case, you know;)
So I've been slowlly tappering off for the last couple months...

I dont know who out there understands PTS (post traumatic stress syn.) Some people dont believe it really exists! But this seceret/problematic world of mine has been greatly helped with my lovely little pills and I am beyond thrilled to be walking again. No drugs. No illusions to health. No bitter unrelenting despair.

I am free

and I am so Happy

Whistler

What a weekend!!!!


This is in line to leave the country for beautiful British Columbia Canada



I didnt have my battery charger on this trip so I was very carefull not to waste power
(Thus minimal pix of us...)


This is on the Sea to Sky Hyway. On the way up we were so happy about what great time we were making! until the traffic suddenly stopped dead. The next EIGHT (8) hours were spent parked on the free way, watching a movie on our laptop, looking for places to pee in the woods, hiking up the road and talking to others who hiked further up the road who talked to others who hiked further up the road what the hold up was, and finding the cutest village at Lions Bay and eating at the cafe, listening to all the europeans & other foreigners and realizing that this just might turn out to be a memroable part of the trip...




Me giving a bear hug finally at our Chateau....




The weather was perfect all weekend!!!!!



The gym & spa were fabulous and where I spent a lot of quality time by myself :)




I stopped for moments inbetween snowboarding crashes and I think I heard the silence breathing.............



Back at the Chataeu for a gormet dinner and chocolate fondue over live jazz entertainment in big squishy chairs playing a card game of personal questions ;) with my heavenly hubby




Saying goodbye to our Canadian valets, eh


ended up skiing blackcomb instead since the snow was better. The lift was in a short walking distance from our room!


And most importantly, Keith's presentation when smashingly! He was introduced as a doctor and had to correct that immediately. He was pummled with hard to answer questions during it but afterwards was lavished with praise & compliments. I happily played the part of "adoring doctors wife". My most important job being to have the most appropriate attire for each event, not say too much, and smile, smile, smile!
I think the smooshing when quite well.



Sad to leave but glad to be home in the greatest country in the world!

Okay Okay

No more wishing on this page

Please look to the right ----------------->

Do you see the link to "the wishing well" ?
http://wishes4fishes.blogspot.com/

Thats the new place to do it now.

Thank you for the interesting new hobby

Cheers!

WOW People!

I am so fascinated and thrilled with all your wishes! I feel like I shouldn't post any more so that they'll keep coming but I will anyway...

I feel like I tripped into the role of wish-keeper. And what a responsiblity! or i should say,,, honor.

Please always return to unload your burdening wishes in my comment bucket.
Next year I will print it ALL out (on biodegradable paper) and chop them up into a zillion pieces and blow them into the wind~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Wishes released!

You can live on fishes but you cant live on wishes

What do you wish for?



secretly
in your heart
everyday
or once in a while

what do you never give up on
wanting
yearning
hoping

silently wishing

what dreams do you fear may never come?

what pains do you hold inside?

I wish I could not wish any longer.....



(please only answer anonymously)

not everything is as it seems...

I feel like the glowing orb
It looks contained
held in solid hands
but i am not
I am floating freely
a zillion miles away
burning too hot to really be touched
too bright to be looked at directlly
i am a fire in the sky