everybody seems to want me to have a girl this time around. Or they assume that must be what I want since I already have a boy. In fact, before ever becoming a mother, I always said that if I were to have only one child then i would prefer a girl. So having that girl first should take any pressure off right.
But then I had my little Dakota Jack.
My heart is filled with all his boyish love. I am happier with him then I ever thought possible and would be perfectly satisfied with only him.
Of course now another is on it's way and so they hope I'll get that girl. The things is, I don't feel so stuck on it anymore. In fact, I kinda sometimes maybe prefer the idea of two brothers playing around doing the little guy thing. Boys do tend to love their mothers more.
Then again, I like dresses and flowers and am keen to paint a room pink.
I tried to look deep inside my true desires and what surprised me the most about myself is that I actually did not mind either way what came next. I am totally and completely content with enjoying whatever God sends us. Funny that.